now please!!

i just had a car accident a couple of hours ago, my car is more damaged than i am .. the funny thing is i was just thinking the other day that the only thing left to go wrong is having my car breaking down, it's my little place in the universe where i can just let go. i can go somewhere to be alone, cry, sing, just hide and no one would intrude... it's a piece of who i am, i dnt care if i sounds lame.. i love my car
it's amazing how a close encouter with i wouldn't like to call it death cause it's too major for that accident, yet it makes u wonder how ur so fragile and no matter what ur dng, how safe u feel, it can all end like that.......... in a second ur gone, amazing how we know that fact for real, yet we choose to ignore it, i know personally i did, many times ur dng something u know u shouldn't be dng and wonder , what if i die now?..
although, other times u go like i wish i can die now......
sorry for the dull thoughts.... its just how i feel this moment.... now please!!!