Saturday, May 2, 2009

Thursday, April 23, 2009

i am a phsycho and every one around is
no one seems to be listening to anyone but themselves, and then pointing a finger at the other and calling them selfish or inconsiderate, that also includes me... 
everyone wants something and they want it right now, and you can't say a word or even frown cause you'll be bombarded with a flood of accusations i am just sick of it, there is too much pressure and i am about to burst, my  mind is gng around in circles and seems to be clowded with all those weird thoughts that don't make sense alone or together, i am having nightmares daily of weddings, exams and what life has in store the next few months, and no one seems to be seeing it.....
i need a hug a big warm motherly hug, the kind that makes it all go away...
its strange when we sometimes complain of the same things that makes us who we are

Monday, March 30, 2009

i feel you

i feel very blessed, el7amdulellah, if only we can be patient enough to walk through the darkness and reach the light everything happens for a reason, i just pray to always have the insight to see it, and the strength to belive in it.
back to what i wanted to write about today, i know i havent written anything in a loooooooooong time, everything is so hectic and time flies, studying, working, preparing , shopping, planning, and working again.....
i wanted to talk about that dream i had a couple of nights back, i  dreamt of my mother, i didn't see her face in the dream, but i felt like someone was holding me real tight, and i just knew it was her, i don't know if i belive in this kind of contact between souls, i ran to my brother (in the dream) to tell him, i  kept saying " mum is here i can feel it" he just glanced at me the way he always does laying on his bed not lookingup from his laptop " you are crazy, how can she be here" . but i felt it so real and i am grateful for that dream.
 mum i think of u always and i miss u all the time, i hope when u hear of me you are proud , i hope you know that i miss you and i never needed that hug more than now.

"i feel you
in every stone
in every leaf of every tree
that you ever might have grown,
i feel you
anyway, in every tear that i have shed
and every word i never said
i feel you"
                                                        [some techno song but it fits ~i feel you]