i choose to forget

i dnt ask u for anything not because i dnt need it, its just because it hurts more to ask and not get anything, than not asking and trying to make believe u forgot or any other lame excuse...
i dnt talk not because i am avoiding u, it's because it hurts more to open up my heart while u pretend to understand and the next day its like it never happend
i depend on my self and they might call it a boyish , not because i like it... it because i have to fullfill the things that are missing.. i choose to forget that you do not give it to me and focus on the fullfillment of achieving cause it's much better than being let down.
i see, and i know what i should be offered....
i know what i may be missing...
i know that i might be wronged..
dnt remind me.... i choose to forget

[this is about u N. cause i can never tell u that in the face]