back to my point she was the last one to come out of surgery so she still had all the drain tubes coming out and the analgesics were wearing off.. they took away her catheter so she had to walk to the bathrooom and since she just had her tummy opened up it was down right painful.... and look on his face seeing his wife in so much pain was just so touching... he got so mad demanding that the doctors should give her analgesics and put the catheter back, so his wife won't be in so much pain.... that look on his face was sooooo genuine.. as if he can feel that pain himself, carrying her to the bathroom and back to the bed... u can see in his eyes that he feels her pain without knowing what she went through.. he can just feel it from the way she looks at him, and i wonder, does that really exist ?!! where did they get it from? did they know they'd have that kind of "feeling"down the road? or they just went ahead and sort of built it aong the way? did they give it much thought or they just stood up for it till they were able to accomplish it? yet i know they are too simple of people to plan it ahead all the way... maybe it was instinct that sparked it ..
it reminded me of another what i can call it "observation" i had long ago, and deep inside i hoped that one day i can have this kind of "mutual feeling" to share with someone.... one day we were on a trip by the beach with a relatively old couple and their kids, they are really very close friends of the family, the lady was not feeling very well, but didn't want to ruin the day for the rest of us, so she just sat with us with a smile on her face pretending to enjoy her meal... and for a split of a second when no one was looking it beat her and an expression of pain just flicked though her face, no one noticed... but he could feel it, her husbant didnt' miss it.... he just stood up and said " dear we have to go, ur not feeling ok" and when she tried to deny it, he said " i know..." she didn't quite argue and let her faked smile go.. and then it was clear for eveyone else how tired she was... i just couldn't let that pic off my head... this is more than love, and this is not easy, yet i know this specific couple stood up for what they had... there were no guarantess except this tiny feeling that they nurtured till they got there.. and i wonder did they young couples of today miss that in their search for a mate.. does it exist in the world as we know it today.. or is it like many morals, and feelings lost in the fast wheel of change
this is lyrics to a real favourite that i think describes this "feeling" in a really special way, it's by a band called lifehouse the song is "breathing"
I'm finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what I am gonna do
when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace
I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
than to sit Outside Heaven's door
and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I am looking past the shadows Of my mind
into the truth
and I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than
to sit Outside your door
and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now
*chorus*
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