-PAUSE-

there comes a certain instant in your life when u wish u could just find the "pause" button... when u feel u want it all to just stop, when u feel all u want at this instant is to just drop dead, that the earth could just swallow u... that u can just break down .....
but the weird thing is u don't ... time ever stops for your grief, and no matter how dark it gets, how hard it is to breathe, or how much the mere beating of your heart seems to consume all the energy there is in your body............ life goes on.
and at one point many weeks, months, or even years after that moment you look back and see all the huge mountains of sorrow just seems so small, things are not as fatal as they may seem and you may feel even stupid, but there are a few lessons in life we just can't learn except the hard way, no matter how many people try to lend us a hand....... fullfill all the maybe's and what if's so u can break free and move on feeling you've done all u can, and now u can move in the only way to go.... forwards