"all that you are is.. a wall between myself, and me"

seeing u blows my mind away... i never got to know if it's a good thing or a bad one, nothing seems to matter when u're there.... my mind does not seem to function... i search inside looking for my self but i can't find it, it returns to haunt me when ur gone.. and i wish u stayed to chase her away....i dnt like her she scares me...

she makes me think too much and she is the same one who made me forget what happiness is.. and now i am getting to know it again, and i want to .. god how i want to

she is the one who made me forget what happy is, and now i think i am getting to know it again... yet she stands in my way warning me, keeps nagging and reminding me that it might all go away.. she thinks that i might hurt more if it does, and she knows i have no more room for scars ... she knows how far i am willing to go and she knows how many people who knew that used it... she scares me yet she is afriad of you cause u're the closest.. ur inside and it is the hurt from within that can hurt the most.. it can hurt to kill...

Find me here ... Speak to me

I want to feel you.... I need to hear you

You are the light... That is leading me

to the place where I find peace ...again

You are the strength.... that keeps me walking

You are the hope.... that keeps me trusting

You are the life .... to my soul

You are my purpose.... You are everything

And how can I stand here with you

and not be moved by you

Would you tell me how could it be

any better than this

You calm the storms .... You give me rest

You hold me in your hands .... You wont let me fall

You steal my heart .... and you take my breath away

Would you take me in? ... Would you take me deeper now?

cause you're all I want

You are all I need

You are everything

everything

[life house ~ everything]

i can feel it coming in the air ....

definiton "karma":
"Hinduism, Buddhism. action, seen as bringing upon oneself inevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation.. "
i totally belive in karma... what you do will come back to haunt you good or bad, if not in this life well then it will be in the next one...
so does that piece of info make you think twice of the consequesces???
i guess not all the time.. i guess no one is afraid of the good deeds it is the bad ones that are scary..
and when u fall... u are in a state of apprehension waiting..... in a state of apprehension.... waiting for karma to hit...

if you can't understand my silence .... you will never understand my words
anonymous~ was on top of my desk someday

fading away

it fades..
all my worries and my thoughts when ur there,
i was never able to judge if its a good or a bad thing?
but for some weird reason everything is not the same... i am not the same around u
i have a zillion things to say... a million things i want to do
but i just sit there staring at u ... blank
trying to savour every moment cause i know that soon u will have to go... i don't want to disturb this moment and i dnt want to go back to face the demons all alone..
sometimes i wish if only u can stay
if only i can get the sun to shine on a rainy day

i want you

this is specially for you... cause i always feel that i can never say or do anything to make u feel the amount of joy and happiness u bring into my life...
you bring me hope and dreams there were so lost before u came to stay :)
so this goes out for you

i want you

i want you to break these walls around me

i want you to reach deep inside of me

i want you to live in my dreams

i want you to help me over come my fears

i want you to be a part if me

long time... no blog

well here i am ..
back venting all my bottled thoughts... out from the widmills of my mind into the world wide space
why?
it' s always a good vent when all the ears are tired of listening ... and all the heads are weary of trying to make sense ..
i am not gng to be writing on regular basis i guess.. maybe just drop a line or two. maybe i am not that good taking it out in verbal words, lately i have been all so silent although i know i have alot to say and alot that would love to be heard... but they just dnt make sense to me in words maybe they can make sense in writing

the end

" plain talking

has took us so far

plain talking

has served us so well

we travelled through hell

oh! how we fell"

Moby~lift me up

i am thinking of closing down this blog, i don't feel comfortable sharing my thoughts anymore, i am tired of the illusion that someone out there is following, listening... no more illusions

maybe i would come back to it after some time .. maybe i'd start another one with a new spirit

but for now this is the end