if you can't understand my silence .... you will never understand my words
anonymous~ was on top of my desk someday

fading away

it fades..
all my worries and my thoughts when ur there,
i was never able to judge if its a good or a bad thing?
but for some weird reason everything is not the same... i am not the same around u
i have a zillion things to say... a million things i want to do
but i just sit there staring at u ... blank
trying to savour every moment cause i know that soon u will have to go... i don't want to disturb this moment and i dnt want to go back to face the demons all alone..
sometimes i wish if only u can stay
if only i can get the sun to shine on a rainy day

i want you

this is specially for you... cause i always feel that i can never say or do anything to make u feel the amount of joy and happiness u bring into my life...
you bring me hope and dreams there were so lost before u came to stay :)
so this goes out for you

i want you

i want you to break these walls around me

i want you to reach deep inside of me

i want you to live in my dreams

i want you to help me over come my fears

i want you to be a part if me

long time... no blog

well here i am ..
back venting all my bottled thoughts... out from the widmills of my mind into the world wide space
why?
it' s always a good vent when all the ears are tired of listening ... and all the heads are weary of trying to make sense ..
i am not gng to be writing on regular basis i guess.. maybe just drop a line or two. maybe i am not that good taking it out in verbal words, lately i have been all so silent although i know i have alot to say and alot that would love to be heard... but they just dnt make sense to me in words maybe they can make sense in writing

the end

" plain talking

has took us so far

plain talking

has served us so well

we travelled through hell

oh! how we fell"

Moby~lift me up

i am thinking of closing down this blog, i don't feel comfortable sharing my thoughts anymore, i am tired of the illusion that someone out there is following, listening... no more illusions

maybe i would come back to it after some time .. maybe i'd start another one with a new spirit

but for now this is the end

" hear my words and I might teach you,

take my arms and I might reach you,

but my words like silent rain drops fell,

echo in a wold of silence"

simon garfunkel ~ sound of silence

let mercy come

we're only human, we all make mistakes and we feel guilty if it, we might feel shamed or disgraced, but what is life but a test, and god is more generous more forgiving that we can ever imagine despite being fair and powerful more than we can imagine... he created out weaknesses and he knows how hard this life .. this test is to go through with no mistakes that it might not be even possible.... so he is always there waiting to forgive us and he will, he promised us that he will the moment, the second the instant we think of him... but the only thing that stands in our way is ourselves, to part from our weakness to give ourselves a chance to forgive our own selves of whatever it is we've done....

In this farewell

There’s no blood

There’s no Alibi

‘Cause I’ve Drawn Regret

From the truth Of a Thousand Lies

So let Mercy Come

And Wash Away

What I’ve Done

I'll face myself

To Cross out what I’ve Become

Erase Myself

And let Go of What I’ve done

Put to rest

What you Thought of Me

While I clean this Slate

With the Hands of Uncertainty

For What I’ve Done

I start again

And whatever pain may come

Today this ends

I’m Forgiving What I’ve Done!!!

What I’ve Done

Forgiving What I’ve Done

[linkin park ~ what I've done]